I am all-but-dissertation. And I struggle…alot.
And I was raised Catholic, so I feel guilty, alot.
And I have this really cool career that when I stop and think about it, I’m doing a lot of really great things that I enjoy doing - its just that sometimes, it’s a little too much at one time…
And I have these three men in my life that I adore (okay, a man and his 2 mini-men) that I want to make time for…
And I have every reason to have my act together and every excuse not to.

Marshall Goldsmith was on-campus recently ( a tall, affluent white guy with a PhD and a successful book and lecture career ) - and talked about the fantasy that we all have. “As soon as I finish this, or that…life will be less crazy.”
Life is always full. Crazy will always be here.
But whether for vanity or for sanity or for good sense, I’ve always prioritized taking care of myself with exercise. When I was younger it was for vanity…
Okay, and now that I’m older, it’s still for vanity -
But I’ve also grown to learn that there are so many other benefits:
Friends. As I’ve taken on bigger challenges, I knew I couldn’t do them alone. I didn’t enlist friends to do it, but I found them in the process. When I trained for my first marathon, I knew I would never be able to do the long runs on my own. I started with a running group at RIT and then took the risk to run at the back of the pack with this Oven Door Runner group (they meet really early and run really long distances). I love people I’ve met in both groups. Now, my exercise is multi-tasking - catching-up with friends, mental cleansing, group therapy, and sometimes a commute - and I’m still running at the back of the pack.
Better health. My family has dealt with a lot of health issues - physical and mental. I had some early indications of the same - a few back injuries when I was in college and graduate school. I’ve managed with exercise since then. Exercise is my Prozac.
Savoring life. In order to get my workouts in, I have to get up pretty early (and it would never happen unless I have friends I’ve agreed to meet). While we complain for a few minutes about how early it is, we LOVE the mornings. We see the world fresh and new and we have it to our selves for just a little while. And when you are grieving the loss of a loved one - parent, or friend - you experience that effort of exercise a little differently. My father died of emphysema - when climbing a hill on my bike, I am grateful for every last air pocket in my lungs. I know health is something I will not always have, and I enjoy it while I can.
Perspective. Speaking of hills - the most challenging terrain usually offers the most scenic views. And if you keep your heart and eyes open, the same is true when we go through challenging parts of our lives.
I can’t do it all. I make choices.
I really, really am struggling on this dissertation thing…but its one part of my life. Most parts of my life are doing pretty well. But it’s very tempting to think ‘I don’t have time to take care of myself.’ In the grand juggling that this life requires, I don’t have time not to. So if it’s spiritual or physical - or both - make the time that will feed your body (and soul).
Back to the overwhelming hill that is the literature review. One super-crappy-first paragraph done, and a few stats crunched, a few more sources logged…oh my God, Everest would be easier than this…one foot in front of the other …